So, yesterday somehow I warded off my anxiety and constant worries. I kept telling myself, "Not today! The worries don't help anything and there's always tomorrow." Well, today, the fears and worries and anxiety came back double. Or so I think. Maybe any anxiety always feels like the worse.

I think I might have exhausted myself yesterday, keeping all those worries at bay and basically fighting with my brain all day.

I am having some serious conflicts with a few people, mainly because I've decided to stand up for myself, for once in a very long time. I've always thought any conflict will result in someone trying to come and kill me.

Last night I had terrible nightmares about these 2 people whom I foresee terrible conflicts with. They are triggering me big time, but no worse than actually trying to hang out with them and pretend everything is OK. I'm trying to be proactive and look out for myself.

Some people have no respect for my illness and I want to stop being with negative people who trigger me. So, I'm sure my dreams could be seriously analyzed.

I had to stay home from work today and I'm trying not to let this anxiety paralyze me. I took a walk and had a conversation with a neighbor. That helped some. I think if I keep myself busy, it will help, but just getting up off the couch is such a chore.