call this self pity but i dont deserved to be loved. i am a selfish piece of %#@&#! who thinks of no one but myself. i am at breaking point today. i dont deserve to be loved the way i am and i dont deserve my husband and i dont deserve the support i get. i dont deserve these two beautiful teens and i deserve to be put out of my freakin misery so no one else has to put up with it.
please do not send replies saying it's all crap because i know i'm right. selfish and full of self pity.

full stop. jin