Hi Irgendwie. My heart goes out to you. How old are you? The other members are right - you haven't failed - your mum has failed. She doesn't understand and is just clinging to religion as a way of coping with this situation. She is out of her depth. You have done nothing wrong and everything right. You've told her the truth and have given her the opportunity to do the right thing, but sadly she isn't up to that. It may seem like hell at the moment, but this will all pass. You need to be patient with her, because she is the child in this situation, not you. That said, depending on how old you are you need to think about talking to someone in a position of responsibility who could help you, especially if your mum actually does what she threatens. You do not need to put up with abuse. Is there a teacher or other adult who you can trust and talk to about this?

Darvula