Irgendwie, you are not completely alone. For a start, you have a boyfriend, and that's great. One possibility could be to get some support from his family if that is in any way possible. Is he out to his parents? If he is, then they might be able to provide some support. If he's not, then you do still have each other whatever your parents say. They can't stop you being yourself and they have no right to even try to. You haven't done anything wrong and you do not need to change. They need to change if they don't want to lose their son, and as for your father saying he won't have a gay son, that isn't a choice he can make. He already has one and always has had. You haven't changed from the person you were before he found out - you are still the same person, and you can tell him that. Obviously, I don't know your parents and what kind of people they are usually. Do you think that you might be able to talk to them about this after they have calmed down a bit? Do you think they might be able to be reasonable if they have more time to think about it? Anyway, hang in there. You have done well so far - it's your parents who have failed miserably in this situation.

Darvula