I'd like to know how bad your delusions have ever been while you were in a manic state. In the past when I still used to drink and take recreational drugs, I had delusions which were really crazy or full on psychotic. Examples would be things like thinking I could switch neon lights or machines on and off with the power of my mind, or believing I could put magic spells on other people. I would also sometimes hear voices saying my name, but only that - they never talked to me. When I was a child I had an imaginary friend, who I now think might have been an early symptom of my bipolar. Nowadays, I am not anywhere near that bad even though I am unmedicated and I put this down to having stopped drinking and taking drugs of any description. Even so, I still get really angry with people for imaginary reasons to the extent that I often find it best to stay away from other people until the mania has passed. I have lost a lot of friends due to imagining they had done things to me that they really hadn't, or because I totally over reacted to something they said or did. I would like to know other member's experiences.

Darvula