Maybe I do deserve it. I just don't make the grade with people in general. I am not clever enough to understand people and interact with them properly, any person. I am just too stupid, emotionally, to find favour with other people in order to be their friend. It's like being under-qualified for a job, you just can't get the job if you can't do the job. It hurts, yes, but it's reality. By thinking I am good enough to be part of this person's life or that person's life, I am just living in denial, trying to deny a simple truth. Only the strong survive, you know the old saying. If you just don't make it, you just don't make it - that's me. I'll never make it with anyone, and it's time I realize it.