Someone once told me that when life throws you down, you must learn how to get up and clean yourself and keep going. The feeling that you are worthless is overwhelming, I know it on my own skin, but coming here and sharing your situation is an important step. Keeping for yourself is like trapping dust under a carpet. It just adds up until you will trip on the carpet and make a big mess. Speaking your mind to this huge "family" on this forum will make you feel relieved and give you the strength to start changing your life for the better. Anyone else want to cheer this troubled soul? You got a hug from me.