Don't take them anymore. However manic/depressed I get, without meds I do at least feel like myself. By contrast, with meds I feel like a stranger in my own mind. Can't stand that feeling; I'd rather be crazy me than "normal" someone else. I also don't like the fact that by the nature of the situation, the majority of doctors are prescribing drugs they have never used themselves. Obviously, that's unavoidable, but it means that they really have no clue what the effects are like except for what they may read in books. They can't empathise with the patient when you tell them how crap the drugs make you feel. I also believe that a lot of the time, people's reasons for wanting to drug us are perhaps not for our welfare, but more because they want to make us easier to deal with. It's for their benefit more than ours sometimes. It's always been the same - drug up the nutters and they become so much easier to control.

Darvula