I'm reading the book "A million Little Pieces" (which btw is really good and i recommend it), and so i'm sitting there waiting for the bus after work and i come accross this paragraph and it pretty much depicts everything that i'm feeling and so i thought i'd share since it certainly describes it way better than i ever could.

"I am alone. Alone here and alone in the world. Alone in my heart and alone in my mind. Alone everywhere, all the time, for as long as I can remember. Alone with my Family, alone with my friends, alone in a Room full of people. Alone when I wake, alone through each awful day, alone when I finally meet the blackness. I am alone in my horror. Alone in my horror."

Crap, now i've started another one of my crying spells again. Guess thats what i get for trying to distract myself by reading.