Does it ever get better? Really? I feel like I'm gonna be stuck like this forever. The thoughts, the feelings, the urges, they never go away. Sometimes I think I'm getting better, but then it always comes back to this. And I can't see a way out of it. I just want it to stop. I want it to end. I'm sick of it. Sick of the constant battles. Sick of fighting these urges that are so determined to win. Sick of giving in. I can't keep doing this. I really can't. I hate myself. I just want to die.