Until I feel better from this new medication? A week? Two weeks? Is it supposed to fix me? I don't feel fixed at all. If anything amplified. Incredibly irritated and hateful feeling. Always thinking about my regrets and wanting to hurt others and myself. I just started taking it last night. Seroquel 50mg. Which I am supposed to double the day after tomorrow. Not a very large dose but I ended up sleeping a lot more. My body feeling heavy and having a clogged up bloody nose. Walking because it was the only thing I could do to calm down. I've been enraged for weeks feeling and the world just goes round and round. I hate myself.

"Oh no you're supposed to fix yourself now. The medication is just a placebo to make you think you are a god."

Just like every other drug in the world. All placebo. It's placebo all the way down.