We have a food bank in my town, but I can't get there because there's no longer a bus stop near my house. I'm disabled and can't walk all the way to the nearest bus stop. So a lot of resources are functionally inaccessible to me. I've even asked the food bank if they can provide rides, and they told me they don't do that.

I also have a ton of food allergies, so they have very few foods I can actually eat.

I can't call a crisis line because I'm at work on the phone until at least 10:00 tonight. They can't really do anything anyway. All they'll do is send the cops to drag me off to the hospital. Then I'll sit there and stare at the walls for two weeks because there's no actual treatment, and they'll try to put me on a bunch of meds that don't help, and they don't have food that's safe for me to eat without getting sicker. Then eventually they'll just dump me right back out into the same crappy situation with no help or support. What's the point of that?