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...call him to make sure he's still my T. I know... it sounds strange... but this whole once per week thing is killing me. I feel so disconnected from him, I feel like I'm not even in therapy anymore. I only feel like I'm in therapy when I am sitting across from him, on Fridays, from 5:00 to 6:00 pm. Why is it that I feel like such an idiot calling him? Why?

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(((Pinksoil))) I'm with you. Sorry I hijacked your post with my group hug stuff. Gosh we are so alike on this issue. I'll bet though if you want to go back to twice per week, your T won't bat and eye and give you the healthy vs. unhealthy dependence speech. Or ignore your calls for help either. I guess mine believes in this tough love stuff and your T is more empathetic. Remember mine believes in 'feeling the pain' which sometimes yeah its fine but times like this week? No so much.

I need a little more emotional holding than this. I think your T handles you very well and you both have a solid alliance. I'm just in a crappy mood. I still love my T and next time I see him, whenever that is, I'll feel better until 45 min is up!

I came up with a chart to document my moods, thoughts, behaviors based on moods and thoughts, physical feelings and action(s) to resolve. I just started it yesterday. Maybe this will help us between sessions. Maybe over time we'll be able to analyze the data better. I have three journals all in different stages and different places. This chart is in ONE PLACE.