I just need to vent this out here, because it sucks!!!

I went to my appointment early this morning, which is an unusual day for me to go but was because my therapist is going to be away anyway for the rest of the week...........and I was sat in the waiting room, and another therapist came and told me my therapist wasn't able to be there today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my! I wanted to burst in to tears! I'm struggling so much and I can't see him now for 10 days.

It's not his fault, his son is sick I was told, and he shares the sick days with his wife. He of course has to put his family first, I would too.

The strangest thing is I jolted awake at 5am thinking I had heard my phone text and I thought I read the text and it was from my therapist and he said that he couldn't see me and wanted to get in touch directly.(This si strange because his clinic rules would mean he would never contact me directly from his personal phone or email). I realised that I had been dreaming and eventually went back to sleep.

But waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I really needed to see him this week. Blurgh, I need to see him every week. This just sucks even more because after next week he is going to be away so much.

I just feel awful, and sad, and rejected and abandoned. And alone with my mixed up feelings and mind!!

I hate that I have become so used to having his support........