Yeah, I'm already receiving (or am currently waiting to hear from) every assistance program that's available to me. I live in a progressive state, but there still aren't enough resources. A huge part of the problem for me is lack of transportation. A few months ago, my local transit authority eliminated the bus stop closest to my house. It's over a mile walk on a busy highway with no sidewalk or shoulder, and I have a physical disability that makes it impossible for me to walk that distance even if it were a safe walking route. My city councilor is looking into it on my behalf, but he is getting stonewalled too. (There are two counties and multiple towns served by the same transit authority, so my city council doesn't have sole control over it.)

I've tried to request a new case manager, but they have so many clients and so few staff that I was told it's not going to happen. I also don't have faith that a new one would be any better. This agency is well-known for providing terrible services to consumers--for instance, their case managers aren't even required to have any education beyond a high school diploma, so these aren't even social workers or people who have any education in psychology. Even some of their employees say that the quality of services is terrible. It would be better if I could afford to move to a different catchment area, but there's no way I could afford it.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried so hard but still can't meet my basic needs. I've been having a panicky breakdown all day long, but I can't afford to do that because I'm at work and can't let anyone see me fall apart. Everybody's counting on me to do all this stuff, but I have no one to count on to help me. I just can't keep going like this, but there just aren't any resources left to try.