I am so sorry to read about your loss, Oliveaux. A good friend of mine committed suicide almost a year ago. It was very tough to wrap my mind around and I didn't fully accept it for a long time. Even now as I type this, I can imagine him calling and talking for an hour. I always expected that we would be life-long friends, well into old age. In one brief moment, that reality was shattered forever.

It will always hurt to some degree, I imagine...but I try to take comfort in the fact (as I hope you will also) that death cannot kill our memories. I will always fondly remember my friend and the good that came from our relationship.