I know I'm not the only one dealing with this, but I feel like I am. I guess it's because everyone around me seems like an over-achiever and I'm just a manager trying to get through each day.

No one is telling me that I'm doing poorly, but I don't like how little I can produce right now. I can't think and I can barely get simple things done. I have no interest in what I do and I'm just lucky that no one is watching me closely.

I try to break up projects and take breaks, but it can get unbearable at times knowing I could do more and be more, but I'm stuck in this rut. I also hate that so many I knew before have advanced to directors in different places and I'm still just a little manager barely getting by with my area. I feel so worthless.

I wanted to stay home today, but I take so much time off that they have called me out on that. I had thought of invoking my interim FMLA, but that can cause more problems because they all know it's better for me to show up than sit at home. I'm too afraid to ask for anything to help me advance my career and I'm too afraid to ask for the things I need to help me survive like this.

We barely make ends meet as it is, so I need to tough it out and learn what others seem to know - how to work when you don't feel like it. I just can't seem to grow up enough even at 40 years old I'm still nowhere and unmotivated at work.