Depression still controls, but sometimes I glimpse reality and make a run for it just too have it be a mirage. We'll be lucky to make it through this next two week pay period. Everything happens art the same time. Gotta get meds filed, rent, phone, surprise bill, insurance, gas. We may not be able to get food. Want to beat my head against a wall. Hoping that my new therapist is someone I can comfortably talk to about issues my last one wasn't. She was very harsh. My spouse and I are having intimacy issues again. I feel so horrible about it which just makes me sink lower into the depression.