I miss most of the former "friends" (IRL) I used to have but I don't think they miss me. I wonder if I'm a sucker, "stupid" or just plain unlikeable. Probably all of those. . Papa bear says he's happy just with me (but he likes spending lots of time alone working etc.... He doesn't like socialising at all). (I hate causing him any pain, when I talk about my pain which I try not to, he feels helpless...) I'm tired of feeling so alone. There's really no one IRL I can trust with my pain ... They just don't want to know . I don't know why I'm still here on this planet (and it's so hard to leave ). I feel like a sorry arsed selfish piece of **** for feeling this way. Fuzzy bear SUCKS

Btw I've been offered 4 sessions of "talking therapy" on the NHS (generic cognitive therapy )