hi to anyone reading this:

hello. I am very sad because the guy that i was attracted to, i wont see him again. he meant a lot to me. A lot more than i thought he would.
I didn't tell him about my feelings towards him because he had a girlfriend. Now that I know I wont be seeing him again, i heard that he is single now. I have the urge to tell him but I dont know what to do.
For as long as I could remember, I was and still very lonely. I don't have love and I lack of it. I dont know what it feels to rely on someone or depend on somebody. I always kept my feelings to myself and supressed it.
Can someone help me? What should I do? I need advice because this guy is different from any guy that I know of and feel that he is special in his way.
Thank you.
I cry every night thinking that I wont be seeing him again. It depresses me even more than I am already right now.