One of the biggest problems I had in the beginning was that I had a serious God complex going on (I was hypomanic). So absolutely nobody could know that I was taking medication; I am the almighty, invincible, and perfect. My wife was the only person who knew.

Anyway, I started to stabilize with the meds and psychotherapy and then I was more comfortable with sharing some details with others.
BUT...it is restricted to close family members ONLY. I do have some paranoia issues. I am afraid of what might happen if others find out. I feel like I could lose my job, my career, everything.

Nobody needs to know, and nobody will know unless I stop taking my meds and freak out.

It's funny, I get compliments at work for staying calm amidst total chaos. I just think, "well yeah, you'd be calm if you were on 1500 mg of depakote too."