Hi Moonkin...I have to say I was a little shocked when I read your post.Not so much for what you were saying but in fact the way in which you said it.As one who works in a high school setting I deal daily with 18 year olds but I can say I've never heard an 18 year old, quite....you know.... DEEP(corny...sorry) Sounds like to me that you are extremley introspective....a trait from what I understand that is common with those who suffer from depression.Those creative thinkers,artists ,musicians the like.Mabie somehow that can give you some hope....we need more compassion and creativity in the world.
I too am very introspective and quite often think I'm "tired",and I can't do this anymore.Each day however,I know Ive made a difference with the kids I'm soooooo lucky to work with.Find some purpose Moonkin....its whats hiding within....you've got it in you.....theres so much in you to offer the world......hang in there
dreamrunner