Right, it's not going to last forever because bipolar is a cycle, right? You know that you will come out of this current low. It's a matter of taking it one day at a time. Tomorrow you can reassess the situation. Every day you can reassess the situation and do what you feel capable of doing on that particular day. You've managed two weeks already - that's great and a real achievement in itself. It's okay to have a bad day now. Maybe now is the time to go to see the doctor. You've already managed 2 weeks without seeing him, so now you can go and feel good that you did well for two weeks. Setting manageable goals short-term is a lot more effective than trying to go for a huge long-term goal like "I'm going to do this totally alone for a long time with no help". Those goals just drain you after a while. Set yourself lots of short term goals instead and feel good about the ones you achieve and try not to beat yourself up over the ones you can't manage yet.

And please, if you ever feel suicidal, talk to someone. You can talk to us on here. There are loads of us online all the time. Someone will definitely help.

Darvula