I'm new to this. And honestly have no idea where to start. I've been diagnosed as bi polar for about two years now, but my health insurance dropped me so I have had no way to afford my meds. I feel like I'm out of control. It's running everything for me. I'm lashing out at work, my friends, and my boyfriend. No matter how hard I try I just can't seam yo control anything I do or say. My mind is constantly racing and my anxiety is through the roof. I'm work in on getting more help but it's taking more time than I would like. How do I handel this? I can't relax or keep my head on straight. ..it's driving me INSANE!!