So my t said she can order a guided imagery tape for me....and I just asked her for the name of the catalogue, said I can order it myself....
I come home and I think to myself...hey, t'would be nice to receive something from her....kind of like a transitional object....so maybe I will ask her next time I see her...if she can order it for me.....
But then I get overtaken by this feeling of self-hatred....I'm gross, I don't want to be seen by her.....
I'm trying to make sense out of this self-hate feeling that comes up when I 'take' something 'good' from her.
Any helpful insights?
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