Regretful, I feel the same way... I feel nothing. It's weird, but I guess it means that the medicine is working. I used to feel this overwhelming anxiety about work, about how my family and friends see me, what to say or not say, etc. Just this constant fear of being fired, failing at anything, or being humiliated. I just feel this overwhelming apathy now. I used to care too much and now I don't care at all. A healthy sense of fear isn't a bad thing, but now I don't have that anymore. I think the fear kept me in line, sort of, but it also kept me frozen in a place I didn't want to be in. So this lack of fear feels strange, because that has always been the driving force for everything.

Usually when I experience apathy, it's a warning that I'm about to spiral into depression. I don't think it's exactly that, because this feels different. How is it different, I have no idea, but it is somehow. So I'm a little apprehensive about this. I guess I'm still reevaluating, because I'm still using the model of my goals at age 20 and I feel like I'm a different person now. I'm slowly taking steps.. and even if they're baby steps, I think the important thing is that I'm taking them. Good or bad, it's better than staying where I've been.

Also, regretful: I'm glad that the interview went well! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!