What about switching to some other unhealthy yet potentially less damaging habits? Maybe indulging in say, i don't know, more junk food now and then, being lazy more often, neglecting a few unimportant things...such advice i wouldn't normally give but there are countless posts here where people pressurize themselves so strongly that it's no wonder they feel like such failures when they relapse into SI.

If engaging in more positive activities doesn't work and you find that pressurizing yourself less over quitting doesn't actually reduce the amount of episodes - far better then to try and swap to some other less severe habits than scar your mind and body further.

Eventually though, the emotions behind what's driving you to such behaviour MUST be dealt with, it's the only way to actually move on with life successfully and depend on healthier behaviours when life gets tough.

Just a few suggestions i've plucked out the air - if you feel this behaviour is far more indicative of addiction or the episodes themselves are extreme and potentially very damaging, please make sure you're seeking the appropriate professional help to guide you in such matters. I hope you feel better soon.