In my session - nope, never feel really inclined to wanting a hug. No, not I. Never. Therapist moving closer to me feels nice but that's quite close enough, thank you.

Five hours later - somebody cuddle me, please.

Why can't I get the feelings to tally up, so that things happen neatly at the right time when it is convenient?

Can anyone relate? Do you ever hug or not hug and then feel a bit exasperated later because your feelings change?

I will cry if she touches me and that's losing control and I know I have to do it but fuuuuuu#ck. I can't lose control, because then she will comfort me and help it be okay, and I don't deserve that because I'm too ugly for comfort, which is crazy because I would NEVER think that about anyone else. I never look at someone else and think they're ugly. But I can think that way about me, and it's so wrong on so many levels and so frustrating.