Thanks to everyone for your comments. I feel like I've been to hell, but I'm pulling myself out. I felt I was getting into serious spiritual trouble, so going to church helped. I felt like everyone was a devil or something. Now I know that was delusional. Everyone tells me how much they love me, why would they all be out to kill me?

So, realizing my delusions aren't real is such a relief. I would like to hear more about all of your stories. I'm sorry it seems most of you have gone through this. it's like being in a horror movie. I just need a day of rest and watching Netflix