I went in there with my own agenda today, roaring inside like a mini lion. I told her I did not want to discuss my past 2 weeks, I felt it was a waste of time. ( not really I had been through hell and back , but I needed to take a different approach in my session .

I felt my sessions were like a damn Tetris game on expert mode and I kept losing, needless to say, she didn't want to continue the session until I told her about what happened . She thought I was avoiding something and I was. I angrily told her everything how I felt,

She shot right back and told me how she felt, about me being avoidant and pushing her away and omitting .

She said you have improved, but your not letting me in.

I said I'm being avoidant because I have lost connection with you, I been through hell and back , then I hardly see you, I feel like I'm talking to a stranger.

She said , she wants to start sessions with first couple minutes discussing my week. Then the rest is what she calls the core, which is past/present not totally c s a , she says I'm not stable enough yet for it. Then the last ten minutes ,she calls creative stretch, discussing art music winding down .

I then said I was pissed at the " therapy doesn't last forever" I said that's like telling a newly wed couple congratulations, marriage doesn't last forever.

She said, she meant that in the future there is an end. I said it was inappropriate timing ,she apologized , but said we will discuss it next session , because of the analogy I used.

UPDATE: they hired a t, so after my next appt nov 12 th I will be seen weekly.

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