I AM SUFFOCATED BY THEM! Today, I have boycotted all cleaning and work because I can't stand them. They are scaring me...but I am SO much bigger than them! I haven't felt overwhelmed because I have been dancing and singing both alone and with my kids. I'm not a good singer or dancer () but I have danced and sang to my total perfection. I have had perfection today. But, my house is suffocating me and I need to leave. I could drive to Nashville and sing all the way there! It would be total fulfillment for me! If I suggested it to my hubs he would go berserk, so I won't. He gave me a curfew last night when I asked to go for a drive because he didn't trust I would come home and reluctantly, at least I respected him--he threatened to hide my keys. I do love him very much and I know he wants what is best for me. Sorry for the rant, I had to escape my world and sink into this computer and spew words all over the place because if I start yelling or pacing or talking to myself loudly, it will scare my kids. And that is about where I am. But, at least I am still contained and comprehensible. I am going to have to actually escape soon or I will PANIC and my wind is becoming bigger than my reality. My mind is insane.