I just assumed that I was having spiritual experiences or that at other times they were normal. I had been having delusions and hallucinations for years and was only convinced two years ago. My incredibly kind and spiritual psychosis began to become something more sinister which made me question everything about what I was seeing and hearing. Also, I was convinced that I was disease ridden with one particular disease especially. The way that I knew that I was sick was because the "signs" were everywhere. It finally took test after test from doctor after doctor to convince me that maybe something was going on with me.