Not what I expected.

Being completely objective (I don't HAVE to even write this....) you're very handsome. Possibly you still "see" the person that you once were.

As far as depression goes, it's not easy to be sociable. I think you're doing the right things. Perhaps you need to take a step back and stop beating yourself up about your perceived failures and appreciate how far you have come.

I also find that things happen when we don't expect them to happen...