hi. I have known a lot of amazing people who hear voices and see things. So this is not about who you are. But you deserve to be on the right medication to treat this. And believe me, the medications are there. I know several people who are successfully managing this. Just because they are on the correct medication for hearing and seeing things.

I, for one, would support you through finding a psychiatrist who knows how to help people who hear voices and see things. Just know you are not alone. Many good people are successfully under treatment for this. The good news is that a good pdoc who treats this condition would know the right medications. But its important to be honest about it. I know its scary. But once you get on the right medications you will see that the scariest part was life before you admitted it irl and got on the right medications. Again, I will support you while you go through finding a pdoc who knows how to treat this, if you want.