I am very kind, intelligent and reasonable. I have acute and persistent mental illness. Bipolar, borderline personality disorder, anxiety, over-coming agoraphobia. I am sweet, thoughtful, intuitive, empathetic, distrusting and undependable. I am doing the best I can.

My history:

1978 started counseling
1980 diagnosed manic/depressive
1982 stopped counseling
1982-1987 - 7 homes, 11 jobs, 1 child
1987-1990 - stalked for 21 months, began counseling again, tried lithium for 4 days, threw it away, counselor said don't get in a relationship - got married on a Monday night in Vegas so I didn't have to watch the Simpsons.
1990-2000 - 2nd child, 10 years of verbal and mental abuse, 17 car accidents (disjointed thinking, all fender benders) - 5 more states to live in- huge mental breakdown - divorce
2000-2007 - married husband #2 from warped sense of duty to historical religions values - moved again- 4 more jobs
2007-2014 - divorced, married 3rd (and current) husband - fired from job for being 'unprofessional' (another breakdown). Unemployment office strongly urges me to seek professional help prior to looking for another job - being put on social security and titled "acute and persistent mental illness".

Finally I am on the 7th year of the road to accepting my many mental issues. Sometimes I can find true happiness, even with the chaos behind me.

I share this information to urge all others - young and old to really accept yourselves and work with your professional support group. The true regrets I have are acting on behalf of what others told me was the right thing to do. Mourning a life half over, a life just starting.

Best of luck to us all.