I've read many similar accounts from others with this condition, and the voice I hear tortured me for over 5 years. It has been hellish. It's too soon to hope but I think the medication is finally fading that voice that tortures me. So if it was only a hallucination the whole time, I still have my privacy too. This is a wonderful development. I hope you can get on medication that helps. Suicide or other violence is a tragic waste.