Today at work I had an upset stomach and ended up throwing up outside the office. My boss didn't see me throw up but made me go home after I got back into the office because I didn't look good. I have been having stomach problems for the past year and a half and doctors haven't been able to do anything about it, and I'm damn sick of it at this point.

Being sent home from work makes me feel worse because I feel as if I failed at something, and brings back the anxiety I have about my physical symptoms.

I'm also having flashbacks to physical symptoms I've had in the past. I'm getting better at dealing with them but I'm still getting them.

I feel lost right now.