honest never works for me i tell ppl what i think when i think it

alot of times they take it the wrong way and ends up getting me in deeper troubles .......i told the doctor last time about using weed and he ask me how offen i drink less then 10 times a year

i was still labeled as a drug addict and drunk .. that was 2 years ago so because they called me that i learned how to make moonshine (gallon and half of 140% be hide me) and how to grow weed plants ( looking for a job in cali or wa or co )

because he labeled me that when i applied to SSI they turned me down after 18 months of jumping tho hoops .........so the truth does nothing but wastes time and screws me over

i am just looking for something to keep the impulses under control take away the anger and allow me to well walk out among ppl with out feeling out of place and the urge to leave ......and something to let me have a attention span longer then 5/15 mins