I haven't posted in many forums on here, but I am really in a crazy depressive episode right now, as with days following this I had mixed episodes, along with really fast rapid cycling. I'm utterly exhausted, and on top of that, my BPD is also "flared up" so I'm also dealing with that and my PTSD as well. Sounds fun huh? I'm just really down after my therapy appointment, because I came to the realization that there is no fast and immediate help, even though I've always truly have known this... it just sucks! She is really concerned, and making sure that I follow up with medication and psychotherapy. She's trying to keep me from going to the ER... She upped the dose of Abilify to over double of what it was (from 2mg to 5) Then possibly upping the dose of my Lamotrigine from 200 to 300mg. So, we shall see how that goes, I'm pretty much withdrawn from society, and it's growing more intense. But anyways, Anyone else in the same boat? What are you doing about it? I'm also looking for as much support as possible! *huggles all* ~ Angel