I am back on daily contact with my T. Everytime this happens I feel like I've been sent to the principal's office and I'm in trouble.

I know he does this just to keep me safe and there are other safeguards in place also but I still feel like a small child everytime I have to call him to check in.

Yesterday I had therapy with him and we talked about me being sick and how that always causes instability for me. He told me to call him before I acted impulsively so when I got home the urges were very strong so I called him. We talked for a few minutes and he told me to call the crisis line last night if I needed to. Well I did and that guy was about as useless as a rubber snake. I called my T's voice mail after and left him a message and will call him when I get home this afternoon like I'm supposed to.

I hate having to be so dependent on other's to keep me safe.

Jbug