I've told my therapist this. I've told my mom part of this, but would have to probably tell my mom most of it.

I'm 36 years old and was supposed to graduate from college this semester(finance and economics). i dropped out to seek treatment. But I could still very easily graduate in August.

But I kind of don't feel like going back to school or anything right now, ever really. I don't feel like I deserve a degree.

So I'm tempted to sell most of my stuff, really downsize, and move into the trailer behind my buddy's mom's place. It's cheap rent. I could have my dog and my cat.

Then get a job waiting tables or bartending at night, that's kind of my background anyway. Quit therapy, get off the meds, and start getting very drunk every night after work until, well, it's over.

This is very seriouly on my mind.