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i feel like it's almost impossible for me not to be anxious at this point.
I feel like my time is running out quickly, and I should have my ***** together by now.
I worry that I won't be able to handle a screaming baby, i won't be able to function on no sleep. I worry that I will get too stressed out, and turn to alcohol again.
I tried so hard to push these thoughts out of my mind.
I worry about money.
I worry about not being able to handle things on my own.
I worry about my child resenting me for not having a father around.
I'm scared I'll regret having my child.
I don't ever want to look at my kid as a mistake
I can't even figure out if my baby is a blessing, or a mistake as horrible as that sounds
I couldn't get an abortion, I just couldn't.
This will be my first child
my first time living on my own
my first time focusing on myself, and being single
everything is new
fresh
i feel myself rapidly going through changes and it scares the living hell out of me.
I'm still trying to figure out who I am
My life is about to change completely
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