She said, I probably have catatonia, and my mom says I have dystonia. The fact is I need to see a neurologist again. She knows, but said an interesting thing. I am a very hyper sensitive body and human, by design, drugs of every kind affect me at a very intense level. From prescription, tobacco, and illicit drugs, I stopped doing all that stuff. I only smoke my hookah on occasion, but mainly. She's right emotions and my life was so intense no one can see what I see.

She's happy I am very skeptical, because she's like, "you've had so many past traumas, being screwed over a lot. I'd be concerned if you weren't skeptical as you are."

We had a good session, but it was intense yesterday a man died at my work, it was sad, he was one of my customers and his very last human interaction was with me. It felt powerful in such a weird way. He had a heart attack eating food at the restaurant and died at the hospital.

I have also talked to her about a co worker who nags me like my mother exactly and not in a good way. It's very infuriating, I can take criticism, but she isn't a manager, she's is another employee who even though she's worked there long enough. She tries to be so mean to me, and being professional at the same time. More like a bully, she tries to play as miss tough skin *****, but in reality. She is tough skin, but she is a bully to only me. I don't know why me, I know she gets on everyone, but she's much harder on me. Yells at me the most and saying, "what did you do?!?!?! you're messing everything up again!?!?!" She has a weird attitude with me.

I never talked to her disrespectfully, I was making a dessert treat and she was right next to me. I went to finish what I was doing not talking and because I was there, she says, "you could at least say excuse me!" like I am doing something wrong again.

It's that kind of negativity from people who push their weight on individuals. She thinks, I'm weak and an easy target, I am the whole time confused at work what's going on. I told one of the managers about her doing this to me, I'm a bit new like 2 months, I know better. I have my medical problems, and my neurologist told me people will definitely judge and believe I'm lying all the time and it will be really rough, but what am I supposed to do?? Get fired eventually from my body going out of control.

It's not caused from lack of sleep or stress, even though one or both of the things happen, but not as nearly as often as my mom, case worker, friends say I do. They don't know, I put my health above all else. It gets on my nerve to put the blame on me, when I don't have an explanation. I don't have a consistent diagnosis and my Brain MD is scratching his chin all confused.

It's like I'm in a weird horror movie.
The last thing on the co worker, she's making an issue out of nothing. Trying to pull, I'm the weak link trying to not do my job. I go above and beyond at work, she just comes around when I mess up or tries to do it and assumes I'm a failure when someone else screws up if I'm in the vicinity it's automatically my fault. She believes I'm afraid of her, if I'm not talking to her. I'm not afraid, I don't require input for her stupidity. Also, she needs to lay off, I don't want to tread, but she is bringing this situation to a place I don't care to go to. I just show up to do my job and go home. I'm not afraid of her, she doesn't intimidate me one bit, she assumes the things she doesn't understand and I don't talk much at work as I do anywhere else. I am a mute and do my job. It's not that I'm weak my more introverted side definitely shows at the workplace than everywhere else.

Damn leave me alone. Go ***** at the people who should be not me.