I went into my therapist a couple weeks ago and said, "I hate my life".

she said, "so what are you going to do to change it?"

you say you want control, so I ask you the same question. instead of beating yourself up and hating on yourself, what can you do to change your life?

you want people who are going to treat you a certain way? then get rid of the toxic people in your life.......find healthy relationships

tired of your parents.......move out

don't like the people you work with......get a different job

if you want change, look for solutions to the issues that are causing you difficulties in your life and take action. action will create the change you are looking for. good luck