I have been feeling very overwhelmed by life in general as I suffer from Bipolar II disorder, which is characterized as hypo-manic episodes followed by episodes of depression. Right now I am in a depressive state and am experiencing suicidal ideation (I am not going to commit suicide, I just feel so overwhelmed that I feel like dying would be a relief). I work in the mental health field as a peer counselor and it's getting really hard for me. I have social anxiety as well and being around people all of the time is mentally and physically exhausting for me. I need to work though so that my husband and I can keep up with our bills, plus my job is rewarding because I am helping people. But I'm falling short of taking care of myself in the process. I basically run our household, am in charge of our finances at home, then go to work and have added pressures. I feel that at any minute I could just break and everything would fall apart. My husband also has a mental illness and works full time, he contributes in that way but he has his own issues that I also take on. So with my life pressures plus trying to manage my symptoms (which in itself can feel like a full time job) are just consuming me and I feel there is no way out. I have physical pain too, headaches, muscle aches, just overall fatigue. I see a doctor regularly to monitor my meds but I need to be in therapy as well but have not found the time. That is why I am on this board because I just need to put this all out there to vent to anyone that may read this. I'm not really seeking advice because I know what I should be doing as I work in the mental health field, I just need to put this out there that I AM STRESSED OUT. Life is just so hard sometimes. Thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this.