I havent tripped out on stuff like this in a long time. I had to just get out of my head. I dont even try to figure things out anymore. It is what it is. I'm far from hopeless though. Everything is clear. What was reality ended up being staged to look fake. I don't even have schizoaffective disorder. Thats what they decided to label me when I tried to explain actual events in my life. F.uck them. Hahaha anyway. GET OUT OF YOUR HEADS! Bye.