I'm sorry you are not being heard, validated or believed! In USA suicide became so high that people finally are taking it (mostly) seriously. Especially since even our Hollywood Stars are attempting/committing. I hope for you that these waves stay just waves and not become attempts. Do you have a suicide hotline you can call? You might check one out so that you have at least that on your side when no one else (but us here at PC) will listen. Be as safe as you can be!