Hi jjishere,
Your post touched me. Although I don't suffer from treatment resistant depression, I have been right down there in what I call a "Dark Night of the Soul". It was the most horrible place to be and the way you have described yourself, sounds like how I felt at that time. I'm lucky because I was able to crawl my way out of the darkness, but there were many, many times when I was in the midst of it that I felt that I could no longer continue. The pain, despair and anguish was almost intolerable.
I pray that you can somehow find a way out of where you are at.
Please take care and be kind to yourself.
Love Jannaku x
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