Yes I am working with a therapist and have been for almost 3yrs. We touched on it in Wednesday but I really don't want to talk about it with her or really anyone face to face. Here is fine it's anonymous and I feel fine with it but makes it too real to speak I. Real life to T or Pdoc or even my wife. I've always internalized everything it's one thing I'm working in with T.

I was really out of it Wednesday at Ts. I was very paranoid and agitated. She was speaking in that voice that's supposed to calm but I can't stand that voice. It really irritates me but I said nothing. I couldn't say anything. I was in distress and all I wanted to do was cut but instead I painted and went to my appt with T.