Today is a "good day" for me because I have my daughters Halloween party at school to attend and trick or treating .. doing what I love most being a mom .. yet I have to push myself to go. There's no way I'd miss it .. but I just wish this overwhelming whatever in between state I'm in (med changes, few days in a row feeling pretty good..some days not) would just go away and me just be comfortable with myself again. It's a weird state I am in.. like I'm learning and letting go of the past which has hurt me totally .. and being positive as much as I can to get back up and keep going..stand tall and face the issues and move on from it .. but I can't. Even though I am feeling better then I was weeks ago; I still have this "fake it to make it" overwhelming feeling still inside me that want's to be sad and down and just blah.

So ya...that's how I'm feeling today. LOL. I hope each of you have a good Halloween ~ and know everyone has a struggle some just deeper then others. But Hey..that's why we are on here. Hope each one of you can find at least one smile somewhere within the day..just because IT FEELS GOOD.